New Solo Adventure

 2021 Beginning of New Solo Adventure

Updated November 21, 2021. While in North Carolina. 

What does SOLO really mean? Usually it means alone, or 1, but in my case it means me and Ziva on our own. We will never be alone as long as we have each other. And The Bud-man will always be with us and we will continue the lifestyle that he loved. Need to rebuild as we go but nothing is impossible in my mind. 

Will it be lonely? Well yes, of course and always will be without Bud but Ziva and I will continue for him without him and he is watching over us along the way.  He showed us it was possible, thought it wasn't but I know he lead me in the right direction. Will my life ever be complete again, probably now like it was but will be whatever we make it.  I am unable to fear the unknown, fear and can't do are not in my vocabulary. We will continue to roam until we have seen all we can or until God says it is time to slow down. 

I accepted a job at Bentleys Saloon, one of Buds most loved places. This job has given me the courage to keep going. I have a great social life here without all the drama. I go home after working 4-6 hours and I feel complete, like I am still alive. Bud loved this lifestyle and always said "if I have to explain you won't understand", and he is so right. Many don't understand what it is like to be a biker, those that do are always in a happy place. This job brought me out of my cocoon, and I cannot wait for Spring to get here, so I can return in April.

So now to my first voyage south again. I am in North Carolina, near Columbus and will be helping my previous bosses for a few months, maybe make it to Florida to visit some friends and who knows what else. So November posts will start new and hoping 2022 brings more fun that 2021. 2020 in now in the past but not and never forgotten. 

The Polywog is covered and waiting for us to return. It may be small but we don't need a lot to survive. 

Ziva has a new seat so she can see out the window and also enjoy the trip.

But she still needs to be close to me.

We really enjoyed our stop in Penn with Rox

Fun Fun Fun

What If I Never Get Over You

  Song by Lady Antebellum

https://youtu.be/rbFj2t9d7Z8

It's supposed to hurt, it's a broken heart
But to movin' on is the hardest part
It comes in waves, the letting go
But the memory fades, everybody knows
Everybody knows

What if I'm tryin', but then I close my eyes
And then I'm right back, lost in that last goodbye?
And what if time doesn't do what it's supposed to do?
What if I never get over you?

Maybe months go by, maybe years from now
And I meet someone and it's workin' out
Every now and then, he can see right through
'Cause when I look at him
Yeah, all I see is you

What if I'm tryin', but then I close my eyes
And then I'm right back, lost in that last goodbye?
And what if time doesn't do what it's supposed to do?
What if I never get over you?

Ooh yeah
What if I never get over?
What if I never get closure?
What if I never get back all the wasted words I told ya?
What if it never gets better?
What if this lasts forever and ever and ever?

I'm tryin', but then I close my eyes
And then I'm right back, lost in that last goodbye
And what if time doesn't do what it's supposed to do?
What if I never get over you?
What if I gave you (what if I gave you) everything I got?
What if your love was my one and only shot?
What if I end up with nothing to compare it to
What if I never get over? Oh, if I never get over
What if I never get over you?

What if I never get over you?
Oh, what if I never get over?
Over you.......

Adventure Ends in 2020

Today is April 15, 2020, and I should be doing my taxes but because of the pandemic going on the filing date was changed or extended. It has been a long time since I posted anything.  But believe me when I say it has not been  because we were having too much fun. Instead it was one of the worst times of my life.  We made it to Waco TX and we got a position with the Army COE there and were hoping to find my soul mate and traveling partner a doctor and find out why his back was in so much pain.

Eventually we found out what it was but it turned out that he had cancer that had metastasized to his bones. And after a 3 1/2 month battle he passed away on Feb 18, 2020. At first I spent my time trying to cope but then the shelter in place order in Connecticut came about so I now had to stay put. It does not make this adjustment any easier, if anything it makes it worst,  but in a weird way I feel that there is a higher power that is standing over me. Maybe that power is making me suffer this way so I have to face it, don't really know yet.

Once we found out how serious the cancer was he said he wanted to go home to where his family was and there I would also have my daughter.  So we sold our stuff and I got him home to Connecticut, that was in January, 2020. And today I finally turned on the computer to look at all the unfinished work on my blog. This blog was supposed to have many many more adventures.

I spend so much time remembering all the things we did, and not once did I regret him retiring at 62 instead of 66 because had we waited he never would have been able to experience the things we did. We had three years of adventures and met some really awesome people along the way. We had no trouble finding some great jobs but I do now regret that we had to cancel the job we had scheduled for the winter in Florida and eventually had to cancel the position back with the East Brimfield, MA, Army COE that we promised to spend another summer there. 

I have no clue where I go from here. But the first thing I need to do is accept that he is gone forever and I must find a way to make the best of my life. I have so many unanswered questions, especially "Why". All I know right at this minute is that little Ziva is beside me all the time, and I often wonder if she misses him like I do.

I'll Never Love Again

 

Song by Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga

https://youtu.be/52nfjRzIaj8

Wish I could, I could've said goodbye
I would've said what I wanted to
Maybe even cried for you
If I knew it would be the last time
I would've broke my heart in two
Tryna save a part of you

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name fallin' off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love again
I'll never love again, oh, oh, oh, oh

When we first met
I never thought that I would fall
I never thought that I'd find myself
Lying in your arms, mm, mm
And I wanna pretend that it's not true
Oh, baby, that you're gone
'Cause my world keeps turnin', and turnin', and turnin'
And I'm not movin' on

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name fallin' off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love

I don't wanna know this feelin'
Unless it's you and me
I don't wanna waste a moment, ooh
And I don't wanna give somebody else the better part of me
I would rather wait for you, ooh

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
Baby, unless they are your lips

Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Don't let another day begin
Won't let the sunlight in
Oh, I'll never love again
Never love again
Never love again
Oh, I'll never love again

Wish I could, I could've said goodbye
I would've said what I wanted to
Maybe even cried for you
If I knew it would be the last time
I would've broke my heart in two
Tryna save a part of you

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name fallin' off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love again
I'll never love again, oh, oh, oh, oh

When we first met
I never thought that I would fall
I never thought that I'd find myself
Lying in your arms, mm, mm
And I wanna pretend that it's not true
Oh, baby, that you're gone
'Cause my world keeps turnin', and turnin', and turnin'
And I'm not movin' on

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name fallin' off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love

I don't wanna know this feelin'
Unless it's you and me
I don't wanna waste a moment, ooh
And I don't wanna give somebody else the better part of me
I would rather wait for you, ooh

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
Baby, unless they are your lips

Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Don't let another day begin
Won't let the sunlight in
Oh, I'll never love again
Never love again
Never love again
Oh, I'll never love again

https://youtu.be/52nfjRzIaj8

Oct 1 Leaving Wichita Falls

Leaving Coyote/Jellystone Park out side of Wichita Falls and heading to Army COE Midway Park in Waco

Sept 30 Wichita Falls Tx

Left Amarillo this morning. Decided to get all new tires for the camper, had bad feelings about the one that fell apart and they all were just a year old. Better safe than sorry. 

Going to spend tonight around Wichita Falls then will go to Waco.

Sept 28 Cadillac Ranch

Started today off in Amarillo by going to see the Cadillac Ranch